May 2013
91 posts
My Soul
Ears plugged
Music accompanies me as I made my way
Silent roads
Bats accompany me as I headed home
Eyes shut
Tears accompany me as I try to drift away
Soul rests
No, it never does…
It never rests
Feeling really sad
But I shouldn’t otherwise I’ll just mess things up, again.
You tell me happiness is a choice
It always is a choice
But you never understood me for who I am
They say the person who loves you will bring the best out of you
But why is it that I only see the ugly side of me? So much that as much as I want to be a better person each day, I’m starting to think that it’s almost impossible already.
“Not good enough”
It kept ringing in my ears over dinner
It reminded me of how little I am
My Emotions
This whirlpool
Spinning, spinning, spinning
I watched as my toes enter the mini tornado
And I get sucked in
Consciously unconscious
It’s a mess, a disaster, a test
But when I reach the tip of this whirlpool
Will I see my heaven at the benthal?
Waiting for d-day
I feel really sad. But I really, just have to get used to handling this emotion.
The urge
Just another night…
Learning to treasure myself and the people around me…
I have to think positive. I will try again…
Bruised
How many ways can a person die?
Reading through the past… And i can’t help but cringe as I see that you said you used to be happier
The only change was me
Hello tears
Hello sadness
Hello pain in the heart
When will I say goodbye to all of you
My thoughts and feelings shouldn’t matter…
Things will only get better…
I need to borrow self-help books
I just really want to die sometimes
Is it my fault
Why can’t anybody console me
